Just Keep Swimming

Jul 19, 2004

*I NeeD YoU LiKe .. You NeeD HeR ... *

It's like your heart has been ripped out and stomped on. You.. you can't breathe, you don't want to eat, you can't function. It's the most intense pain that you'll ever feel, and there's no way to relieve it. It's unyielding, merciless torture, and you know its yours for life

Don't depend on me to ever follow through on anything but I'd go through hell for you

so one last touch and then you'll go
and we'll pretend that it meant
something so much more
but it was vile, and it was cheap
and you are beautiful but

you don't mean a thing to me

I wish I had the guts to walk away, and forget about what we had. But I guess the reason I can't is because I know you won't come after me and I guess that's what hurts the most

Someone should sue Disney for planting the ideas in little kids heads that every girl has a prince and everything ends up happily ever after

Day or night
Fuck if I know
Hard to tell with no fucking window
And sundials
What good are sundials once the sun is gone?
What are you good for?

"every couple of nights or so you pop into my dreams... i just can't get rid of you like you got rid of me."

All I want is for you to know me again, for me to be in your life. And, even if it can't happen right now, I would just like to know that you heard my plea. I would just like to know that I am not blocked from your memory.

I don’t run from you, I walk slowly, and you don’t care enough to stop me.

"I can't keep being your second`
choice not when you're my first."

why do I feel
a million miles away?
why do I feel
like we're broken?

"Wherever I am, I find myself looking out of the window, wishing I was somewhere else."

--I know it's true
I know you've got a new favourite
I know you've got a new favourite
You've got a new favourite--

So im gonna walk away, and its up to you to say how far

"If you ever said you missed me then dont say you never lied.. im without you"

i wish there was something i could say, to ~~erase~~ each and every page you've been through,
even though its not my place to save you anymore.

i am a daughter hiding my * depression*
i am a big sis *making a good impression*
i am your friend * acting like im fine*
i am a teenager *pushing her tears aside*
i am the girl sitting *next to you*
i am the one * asking you to care*
i am your best friend *hoping you'll be there

u think ur the one laughin last but you can't laugh last if
i stab you in the throat w/ the knife you left in my back

*where do u turn when the past is all you need....but the future's nothing to look forward to...*

**** I didnt write any of these, i mostly got them from different quote sites. they are mostly lyrics from different bands and things of that nature***

byebyeihateu went swimming @ 09:08 pm
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Mar 15, 2004

I’m tired of crying, I know I’ve been smiling but inside I’m dying

my life is fading sick and
tired of wasting time.. my
back is breaking underneath
all these lies.. right now im
feeling that no ones gonna
help me out but myself..

its like you wanted to see how bad you could hurt me,
how many times you could make me cry,
before i finally got mad

the best things in life are unseen..
thats why we close our eyes
to kiss.. cry.. and dream..

watching the days burning out like a cigarette..
just a few drags to go.
built me up and broke me down somehow..
everything just seemed so clear to me,

nothing left to know.

do you care if i dont know
what to say?

Tear me open at the seams.
Take everything you need.
Take my heart if you like the beat,
Take my lungs if it's hard to breathe, to breathe.

have u ever felt so alone that nothing makes sense?
well thats how i feel.. like im facin the world with nothing
but tears and a fake smile..

and when i saw you go for her hand.. i mean at that
moment you know it wasnt like i wanted to be the one
holding your hand.. i just didnt want her to hold it..

im breaking my heart tonite..
so you can see whats inside..

in the end, Peter Pan pulled off Tinkerbell's wings so she could never leave..sometimes love is just another way to bleed

Im wrong, youre right.
Im sorry, youre not.
Here we go one more time.. what was the point?
I forgot...

Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.

byebyeihateu went swimming @ 11:07 pm
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Mar 12, 2004

I'm still that little girl that screamed when you touched her... I'm still that little girl

There are few things sadder in this life then watching someone walk away…. like watching the distance between your bodies expand until there is nothing... but empty space and silence

How the hell did we wind up like this?
Why weren't we able, to see the signs that we missed

And try to turn the tables?

sometimes i wish i had never
met you.. because then i could
go to sleep at night not knowing
there was someone like you out
there..

right down to the wire.. even through the fire..

sometimes i wish i could fast forward time..
just to see if in the end..
its all worth it..

do not fall into the trap of pretending everything's fine
when you know it's not

life doesn't hurt until you have time to yourself to think about how things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much shit is your fault..

Don't try suicide
Nobody gives a damn

Love your enemies just in case your friends turn out to be a bunch of bastards.

byebyeihateu went swimming @ 12:53 am
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Feb 4, 2004

i cant make you love me if you dont...

Oh this one's gonna hurt like hell

I ain't asking you to keep no secrets
My reputation already shot
I ain't asking you to commit treason
Just tell me if you like it or not
Like it or not baby that's they way I want it to be
Don't give your heart and soul
My love is only skin deep

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned

Hard as I hold it in my hand
I can stop the wind from blowing

But if you want me you can call me
In the night you know where I'll be
Broken lover you can touch me
In the dark the innocent can't see
You lock it up now hide the key
It would mean surrender to let me see
Oh brave, brave soldier keep it under cover
You fell alone like no other lover
Burn the pictures break the records
Run far away to a northern town
Sell your fear and leave me standing here
With no souvenirs

If I could tranquilize
I might just vaporize
They couldn't supervise
They couldn't criticize
I have no evidence
I have no reverence
It makes no difference
I have no innocence

there was lying on your breath

Please understand
That its not that I dont care
But right now these walls are closing in on me

i need some insanity
that temporary kind

cause you left me with nothing
but you've left me with less

Lives opened and trashed
Look ma, watch me crash
No time to question why'd nothing last
Grasp and hold on we're dying fast
Soon be over and I will relent
Let my spirit pass
This is...this is…this is…this is…this is…
This is my last exit.

byebyeihateu went swimming @ 01:15 am
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Jan 30, 2004

everything fades away, nothing ever stays the same...

Every moment we're together
It's just breaking me down

Wasn't it you and me
Surviving the night
You're fading out of my sight
Swiftly

Sitting in the dark without you
How am I supposed to make it
Through the night

If it's over
If it's over
Let me go

And to the wind go so many dreams
That you held inside
Now you're just a memory
Burning in my mind

When the shadows are closing in
And your spirit diminishing
Just remember you're not alone

And your love
Breaks away the clouds surrounding me
All I have I want to give to thee

Beautiful and bittersweetly
You were fading into me
And I was gently fading into you

baby I need you now
Cause tonight I'm crumbling down
Sinking in the memories
Shadows of you keep washing over me

She dreams of all
That she can never be
She wades in insecurity
And hides herself inside of me

I'm thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight

I only wanted you
To taste my sadness
As you kissed me in the dark

And led you to believe I was O.K.
To just walk away from the thing
That's unyielding and sacred to me

Funny how one can learn
To grow numb to the madness
And block it away

Standing alone
Eager to just
Believe it's good enough to be what
You really are

I wonder if you think of me
Somewhere in the shadows of your mind

How many times can I give in
How many battles can you win

Guess the artist
Hint: songwriter, producer

byebyeihateu went swimming @ 01:01 am
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Jan 27, 2004

cuz you lie in my face of all place...

you're leaving i'll never forget
no matter how hard i try

and there was much to forgive
and there was much to forget
it seems we both stood by
while the record was set
and now when i look at you
and when you look at me
it's a much different view
we are both decked out in our history

i don't know how i feel
but i hope you feel the same
i've broken every speed limit in your name

you're going to have to hide double-time from me
cuz i read our poetry, and i can see when it doesn't rhyme

how tempting, i keep your key still on my ring

i opened the fire door
to four lips
none of which were mine
kissing
tightened my belt around my hips
where your hands were missing
and stepped out into the cold
collar high
under the slate gray sky
the air was smoking and the streets were dry
and i wasn't joking when i said
good bye

i am letting the telephone ring
cause i don't want to know why

i've mapped out my course
looks like it's all uphill
i've got a heavy heart to carry
but a very strong will
it's just hard to travel
in the shadow
of regret
in fact it's so hard
that i haven't actually left yet

you know i can't apologize
for everything i know
i mean you don't have to agree with me
but once you get me going
you better just let me go
we have to be able to criticize
what we love
say what we have to say
'cause if you're not trying to make something better
then as far as i can tell
you are just in the way

he said
baby, do you like to fool around
baby, do you like to be touched
i said
maybe some other time
fuck you very much

some days the line i walk
turns out to be straight
other days the line tends to
deviate

i'm no heroine
at least, not last time i checked
i'm too easy to roll over
i'm too easy to wreck

Guess the artist.
Hint: Female, independent artist.

byebyeihateu went swimming @ 01:18 am
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